May 20th, 2006

2:12 AM

Umm..Err...Hick ?

Got kinda wasted...got confronted and used the VOW to diffuse the situation. Will explain later...Tomorrow apparently big day...lets see...

May 18th, 2006

3:28 AM

The Tipping Point

Insomnia still prevails, Im afraid. I just cant get to shut-eye at these times of the night. Its like the day takes on a different sense during the night. New discoveries are made, its the time to research more so have epiphanies and realizations. All these tantamount to ACTIVELY NOT SLEEPING.

The night, as I have just taken a moment to analyze my milieu, has a sense of calm in it. A sense of solitude that I take comfort it. This is disturbing as it is in the very sense of the word, ODD !

Tempers can be a very dangerous thing and one should :

Take a deep breath instead of clenching their teeth

Close their eyes instead of tightening their grip

To Calm down instead of conflagration

The Tipping Point, a book I have just picked up, has made me understand what I have enumerated above. A small set of inconspicuous factors running around in the depths of the subconscious have the ability to generate a Tipping point {this, I say, with reference to myself}. I am glad that someone has theorized this so that I can apply it to myself and my situations. {The book deals with it on a more actuarial and social level.}

The 80/20 theory, the bystander theory...they're all so wonderful to conceptualize. I have experienced this Tipping Point of Understanding as well as Emotion so many times. They are so apt in getting to understand the abstruse subtleties of my perception. Like this RIGHT HERE. I was being verbose, why ? I have no clue! Somewhere in my head, there was a tipping point caused by some mental trigger that made me substitute simple words with an ability of conveying brevity, with, complicated and lofty language.

This is a relative concept though....

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May 17th, 2006

3:28 AM

Ephinanies and Realizations

I return to Online journal ing because of a reason; an epiphany rather, if that is adequate enough a reason. Although, its been quite a while since I have had an epiphany, the realizations are plenty.

For example- using my much preferred technique of "list by example"- the difference between realizations and epiphanies :

Realizations :

A realization that you might be doing something wrong

A realization that something is happening

A realization that you are changing

A realization that you are still a child

A realization that you are stagnating etc and so forth.

Epiphanies, on the other hand :

An epiphany that makes you understand a "truth" and you go WTF !

An epiphany that makes you go WTF without understanding the truth

An epiphany that makes you change forever

If you havent "realized" as yet, let me allow you to "epiphanize", if you may :

Realizations are those moments of relative clarity when a certain activity is going on, it deals with the continuity of things, good or bad. Hence realizations arent terminal in nature, they act as a catalyst to something already in operation. They might either enhance the operation or recede its effect.

Epiphanies are more conclusive, they provide a means of "closure" / "getting over" / "starting off etc. ". Right now, I am inclined into stressing more importance on the effects of an epiphany than a realization.

Ive had realizations allright, one too many for me. Some of them have been just intensified passing thoughts or things that are well, realized. The epiphany though, appears to me as the proverbial, "hidden gem", it is the MOTHER of all realizations but its effects are far more permanent and end in a resultant convalescing or destruction which would eventually lead to something transcending the previous line of thought thereby reaching a "different" if not a higher plain of thought. I apparently like this.

This effort of resurrecting my writings is a result of an epiphany, one that I feel has shed the outer dry skin of some previous self and resulted in the uncovering of a newer one, not necessarily better. Let me stress on the fact that this is not a metric of performance. Its just a change in perspective or a different understanding of things which ok, could lead to a better self.

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